Me.......

I can't live without: those I love, horses, music, diet coke, beading, reading, Dunkin Donut coffee (extra cream, some splenda),

My bead philosophy is: just keep working at it. Do what makes ME happy and try not to conform to what I think others want me to do.


I always: think the best of people, even when I disappoint myself with them/their actions.


I'd describe my life as: good, very good; for the most part very happy; blessed and lucky.

I have a crush on: Jon Bon Jovi.

I think: Ashley Judd is so beautiful.

I struggle with: my weight, my patience, certain forms of beadwork.

Rules I try to live by: Be on time, give them another chance, be patient, and try not to be a smart ass.

At home, you can find me: beading, playing the stupid game on the computer, reading.

I wish: I had enough money to buy a house either a LBI, NJ (right on the water so I could have a room to bead in -- facing the surf), or at Big Sur -- on an overlook.

New things..

New governor -- big whoop. Like that will make things change.

New Jim Butcher book: MAJOR excitement.

My world, welcome to it.

So, I've been singing it wrong...

Carrie-Anne -- by the Hollies.

OOPS -- it is supposed to be:

"Hey, Carrie-Anne, what's your game now?
Can anybody play?"

Not...
"hey, Carrie-Anne, what's your game now?
Not that anybody plays......."

LOLOL

Memories............

I was driving home from my pedicure and the radio began playing "Just Got Paid Today" -- by ZZ Top.

Wowser, I haven't heard that in years and years.
Takes me back to Spiro's (bar) and hearing Skip's band play it.
Last set of the night (about 1:30 a.m.).
Jeb was wasted -- the slide guitar solo was no where NEAR the original.

Lastly, Jeb takes a step and he misses the edge of the stage and falls off.

We all laughed until we damn near "Pirates of Penzance" .......

What a smile today!

Ok -- I am revitalized......

I've spent some time looking at other art.
Maybe I am ready to JUMP back and be who I know I am and can be.
Sheesh!

Breeders' Cup

I'm pretty anxious for next Saturday to get here -- Breeder's Cup !

Been watching Zenyatta's workouts -- she had an amazing one yesterday.
No decision has been made yet -- Lady's Classic race vs The Classic (against the boys).

Part of me wants her to run against the boys and beat the snot out of them.
Part of me doesn't want her to -- were she to lose, it would break her spirit.

I am surprised that the owners have kept her on the track this long.
It could have an adverse reaction when they take her to the breeding shed.
I wonder how long it will take her to work the track, the chemicals, etc., out of her system so that she can settle down and be a mommy.
She might never be able to have a foal.
That would be sad..... she is such a wonderful horse.

Getting Back on Track

I'm still struggling since returning from Tahoe.
Not sure what happened.
Well, I have an idea ---- and I am keeping it to myself.
Something "put me off my feed", as we would say about horses.
SomeONE.
Why I let myself be intimidated, I don't know.

NO --- I intimidated myself with this person.
She could care less about me, or the art I have -- in fact, that was pretty darned obvious.
I'm like a terrier with a ragtoy -- I have not been willing to let go of my feelings.
I keep telling myself to "Feel the feeling and let it go.
nope -- not working.
I seem more inclined to feel it, leave it alone, pick the scab off and torture myself with MY pain again and again and again.

SIGH -- maybe if I go out in the car and yell really loud I will feel better!

I have been struggling for two weeks to get back in to my art.
Last night I took a baby step.
That helped.
I will do more today.
and make myself, every day this week.

Next week is Breeder's Cup Saturday.
We'll hunker down for the day -- horseracing, beading, and munchies - a great time will be had by all.