Sunday, May 10, 2009

My family tells me that I am naive and gullible, too trusting.
Maybe I am.

I do know that I am constantly amazed at the cruelty in the world that I live in.
People are mean and hurtful.
Deliberately.

I care too much about those I love to be evil.
Hell, I've TRIED to be mean and end up feeling more wretched about the situation than the person I thought I was being mean to.

Right now my heart is breaking for someone I love.
And there is not a damned thing I can do to ease the pain.

Sometimes, just sometimes, I want to crawl in a hole and pull the hole in behind me.
I want to stop trusting people and letting them close to me and the people I love.

But when I think this way, I pause to remember that there are good people in my life.
And I am a better person for those people.

2 comments:

Henrysmomsmusings said...

(((((Lots of hugs)))))

abeadlady said...

Just think how sad our lives would be if we never trusted anyone. Don't give up on us humans. Sorry to hear you have been dealing with some of the bad ones. {{{Hugs to you}}}