Sunday, September 25, 2011

Wedding Photographer

Did I fail to mention that I was NOT impressed with the photographer and his wife?
He was irritable and cranky.
Was rude to a lady in a wheelchair.
And took very few pictures.
When we took some, he stalked us.

I could have done better.


We traveled to north Jersey yesterday, to the wedding of a dear friend.
Had a great time -- despite having to drive like a crazy person -- my hairdresser was late. I wanted my hair blown out nicely for the wedding.
She was late (even though "I" was early) -- took someone ahead of me.
I had to wait.
Should have let Colleen do it for me instead as it would have looked better, I think...

ANYWAY -- much fun and laughter.
Dancing ... and I have blisters on me tootsies!

and back to work tomorrow after a week off.
I need the structure back in my life.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Zoo -- quickie

We went to the Philly Zoo yesterday -- the FIRST Zoo in the United States.
Had a great time.
Weather was good!
Knee was not, but that is what it is.

I need to work the photo's and get them up.

Well said.

Sunday, September 18, 2011


Colleen is SUCH a nag.
I worked on editing photo's yesterday.

I need to be more of a push for it -- I spend entirely too much time looking and thinking.. and looking and thinking some more.

My need is to look at it, decide and MOVE ON !!

Once that is done, I can be more confident in myself.
And eliminate the "but what about"s.....

Saturday, September 3, 2011

For the record

... some whisks are just not made to have chocolate cake batter licked off of them...

that's all I am saying........


I have decided to self-medicate with german chocolate cake -- albeit a small one -- because Ken Rudolph is leaving TVG.
Ken and Matt are the ONLY reasons I enjoy watching TVG -- well, other than the horses.
Their banter, the humor, and the down right good nature -- make it happen.
Some of the announcers drone on and on and on.

Ack !!
And before Breeder's Cup too...
::: sigh :::
what's a girl to do?

well, bake a german chcolate cake of course!
and none of that from scratch stuff.
I reached for the Duncan Hines and the canned frosting.... quick and easy.
self gratification, thy name is Kate.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Moving right along....

The weather is intensifing.
We've had a rainy day.
Now the wind is picking up.
I napped for about an hour because I am not planning on sleeping much tonight.
Might do another load of laundry.
Need to pack a bag to put in the car "just in case".

The Plan:
going back to the living room and will bead.
I'm hoping that we will get SOME of the Travers coverage.
I want to see that race!!!

Friday, August 26, 2011


I'll admit it. I am afraid.
Irene is terrifying me.

I have my family and my furbabies beside me.
But I am afraid.

The house is a house.
it is full of things.
our things.

our life.
our memories.
the state and national says this is a potentially 100 year storm.
i've been through hurricans in Florida.
but nothing with the flooding potential like this.
we are 3 blocks from the mandatory evacuation line.
my office is ON the road that is the mandatory evacuation line
and it is still open.

I am stressed.
we have supplies.
I love my family so much.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Dragon came to visit

The Dragon came for a visit this week.
And tried to engage me in a small battle.
I refused to pick up the game piece when it was thrown down.
Refused to lift up my lance.

Several people commented on how miserable The Dragon looked.

I survived, but I think I had my first anxiety attack (and the second).

Saturday, June 25, 2011

The mind knows....

I'm watching "Eat, Pray, Love" again.
Again it resonates things that are in my mind, in my heart.
Finding ways to make me look at the issues that are distressing me.

"If you want to get to the castle, you have to cross the moat."
but what if the moat is home to an angry dragon -- an angry dragon that keeps breathing fire at you?
I'm happy in my castle on the shore.
There is no desire to cross the moat, fight the dragon and get to the bigger castle.
But the dragon keeps trying to engage me in a battle.

Am I a coward for wanting only to exist? only to enjoy my life and not want to fight?

My stress levels are off the chart.
Every time the dragon sends out an epistle to me, every time the dragon roars, I cringe.
For the first time in my life, I understand what a puppy feels like when the rolled up newspaper is waved at it.
I cringe.
This is new to me.
I don't enjoy this.

I think about fear.
I think about what I need to do.
I think about what could happen if I wasn't working.
(I think about you Simme -- and what you are going through right now.)

My fear paralyzes me.
I've become the woman who will agree with anything to keep the argument down.
I've become the woman who will agree with anything to keep the dragon away.
This isn't me.
This is not the way my work life was to be.

Right now I don't have an answer.
There must be a way to let go of the fear and of the constant thinking about it.
My uber-awareness of the dragon is paralyzing me.

I had a wonderful day today -- very little if any dragon thoughts.
But she creeps back in to my mind, rattling those dragon rocks because I know Monday is coming.
and with a new work week, comes the rolled up newspaper.

In my mind, I am being bullied.
And I am so very unhappy.

I am grateful every day, every hour, every minute, every second for the two who love me so much.
So unconditionally.
They are my family, my life, my love.

I hate being weak in front of them.
Never have I been this weak.
But no matter what, the three of us have each other.

Sore fingers

My fingers are sore from working on BFAC.
And I have so much more to do.
Sometimes I wonder why undertake a large project like this.
Why can't I just do something simple and be done?
Because I am who I am.
That's why.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Too much stuff and no where near enough time

I've worked on my BFAC all weekend.
Well, except for the time we were out buying plants and flowers for the side yard.
And nasty humid hot it has been yesterday and today.

Am I going through some kind of weird part of "THE Change"?
I break out in sweats at all the wrong time.
We were in Borders this morning.
Who broke out in a sweat?
I did.
Doesn't matter where... work, store.
Well, wait a minute.
It does matter.
It doesn't seem to happen here at home.

Old Friends ...

What a great day I had at Old Friends .... Thoroughbred retirement farm in Midway, KY.
I was lucky enough to be usihg Matt's 70-200mm 2.8 lens.
Yup, created a monster, he did.
And now I am preparing to get my own.

I'll start posting up some of my pictures.

GREAT enameled bead give away

Check this out ---

I had already been thinking about one of Barbara Lewis' classes for Philly.
Now I am drawn in and WANT to do it.

She is having a great give-away right now!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Early Morning Riser

Early morning on the backside of the track at Keeneland.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

My Pookster

More Pookie



AC Race Course


I don't post many of my photo's.
The one at the top of the blog is mine, taken at Big Sur.
I can not get enough of Big Sur --wish I was rich.

Here are several others:

Adventure begins tomorrow.

I leave for an adventure tomorrow -- without my intrepid adventure partner, Colleen.
BIG frowny face.

I leave for Lexington for a three (3) day equine photography workshop.
And boy have the nerves struck deep this morning!
Not sure why, but all of a sudden I am shaky, nervous, and just all around anxious.
Everything but the car and the hotel are paid for.
And low and behold, when I went to pay registration fee via Paypal -- There were these "Paypal" dollars that I knew NOTHING about.
$200+ of them.
And that ate up some of the fee!

Probably my nerves stem from my shyness (yeah yeah yeah).
And my fear that people will find out that I don't know what I am doing.

The workshop coordinator, Matt Wooley, is so friendly. We've chatted a couple of times on the phone -- I feel very comfortable with him.

Going in to this like a SPONGE and am going to soak up as much knowledge as I can!

Saturday, February 26, 2011


Going to go see BON JOVI on Wednesday night in Philly !!

What an absolutely unexpected treat!!

I am so excited.

yeah yeah yeah, I've seen him 3 or 4 times before.
Actually almost exactly 3 years ago was last time -- at same place.
But this time will be better!

And the arena team -- the Philadelphia Soul are back practicing again!


I need to post the picture of the last bracelet finished.
Started another -- it's a bit odd.
But I also have idea's for a new one.

And then there is the new stamping toys that I got... need to get metal so that I can play with those.
Hopefully someone at Bead Binge will be selling.
Otherwise, looks like I have to make an order -- can't wait until August for Bead Fest in philly -- but that would be a good place to buy it!

Thursday, January 27, 2011


My latest bracelet is almost completed.
I spend so much time sweating over placement.
Not like other people, no I am not.
It has to be right for me.....
So I am the slow poke.

I'm doing this for me.
No one else.
For me.
The pure act gives me joy.

Familiarity Breeds Contempt

It's true.
The closer you are to something, someone, or an issue, the bigger the chance is that disgust will form.

Friday, January 21, 2011


About 2 years ago when I took my first (and only) collar class from Sherri, I came up with the idea to make the pendant detachable.
At the Tahoe Retreat, I showed her what I had done... making two pendants and using detachable hooks -- she was stunned and said she had not thought about that.

The design keeps coming back in to my mind and I want to do more detachable things.
Not more collars -- the brass setting/base is too tight.

But I want to incorporate my idea in to other items. Working on something right now (in my mind) and as soon as I finish this bracelet, I am going to start on it.

I need some metal to cut and shape ....