Ok -- I am revitalized......

I've spent some time looking at other art.
Maybe I am ready to JUMP back and be who I know I am and can be.
Sheesh!

Breeders' Cup

I'm pretty anxious for next Saturday to get here -- Breeder's Cup !

Been watching Zenyatta's workouts -- she had an amazing one yesterday.
No decision has been made yet -- Lady's Classic race vs The Classic (against the boys).

Part of me wants her to run against the boys and beat the snot out of them.
Part of me doesn't want her to -- were she to lose, it would break her spirit.

I am surprised that the owners have kept her on the track this long.
It could have an adverse reaction when they take her to the breeding shed.
I wonder how long it will take her to work the track, the chemicals, etc., out of her system so that she can settle down and be a mommy.
She might never be able to have a foal.
That would be sad..... she is such a wonderful horse.

Getting Back on Track

I'm still struggling since returning from Tahoe.
Not sure what happened.
Well, I have an idea ---- and I am keeping it to myself.
Something "put me off my feed", as we would say about horses.
SomeONE.
Why I let myself be intimidated, I don't know.

NO --- I intimidated myself with this person.
She could care less about me, or the art I have -- in fact, that was pretty darned obvious.
I'm like a terrier with a ragtoy -- I have not been willing to let go of my feelings.
I keep telling myself to "Feel the feeling and let it go.
nope -- not working.
I seem more inclined to feel it, leave it alone, pick the scab off and torture myself with MY pain again and again and again.

SIGH -- maybe if I go out in the car and yell really loud I will feel better!

I have been struggling for two weeks to get back in to my art.
Last night I took a baby step.
That helped.
I will do more today.
and make myself, every day this week.

Next week is Breeder's Cup Saturday.
We'll hunker down for the day -- horseracing, beading, and munchies - a great time will be had by all.

Kicking and screamin

Damned Blogger - -ate my post.

Looks like I am going to have to drag the muse back -- kicking and screaming.

I am headed to the living room to MAKE myself bead.
maybe watch some tube and check the baseball score out.

Muse has left the building.....

My muse has left the building.

Ever since we returned from Tahoe I have not really been interested in my beads.
I can't put my fingers on what it is, but I am just not interested.

Forcing it won't work, but I'm hoping things come back soon.....

Fundraiser update

I haven't gotten an official total but the UNofficial total is around $7,000.

That works for me !!

Fundraiser

I've been working hard on the fundraiser for my co-worker, Kathy.
It all comes together on Friday at the Ducktown Tavern.
Our committee has been so diligent in getting prizes, asking for donations and getting it all ready.
The other members of the committee have been ab-fab to work with.
Just wonderful people !

Ducktown is donating the food too !

My co-workers have accused me of strong-arming people for donations.
The current favorite line is: "I can commit you to ten tickets, can't I ? "
The person on the other end of the line stutters and says yes.
(only 1 has been standoff-ish)

I email them the list of prizes for the drawings and that seems to make it better :)
Eagles tickets,
Fliers tickets (in corporate boxes with food and drink),
gift baskets,
food,
wine,
golf thingies (2-somes, 4-somes, and memberships),
spa type treatments.
you name it, we probably have it.

Friday will be a long LONG night, but it will all be worth it.
I am hoping we raise lots of money for her!